I apologize for the lack of updates lately; the last couple of weeks have been hectic, which consisted of homework, spring break, SAT’s, homework, doctors appointments, a siblings birthday, and more homework. As soon as I thought I was getting used to the pregnancy and seemed to have had everything under control, my anxiety and fear of the unknown has definitely taken over.
Over spring break, I was given the opportunity to go to Niagara Falls with my parents. It was really special, being the last vacation I would get without a child. We stayed in New York for a few days, followed by Pennsylvania. I had an amazing time and was fortunate enough to have everything go well for me. I was nervous about getting nauseous, but luckily I was able to get through the week without a problem. As expected, my feet hurt due to all of the walking, but I can’t complain; I had a really good time and am thankful for my parents and the opportunity to go on this vacation.
Of course I had to keep up with my online classes during spring break, as they don’t provide breaks. I can honestly say I didn’t expect the work load to be so heavy. I spend the majority of my time each day sitting at the computer, but I realized the work isn’t whats stressing me out – it’s myself. I fight through the exhaustion regardless of the reasons i’m given to just give up or work at a slower pace, because I need to complete my classes before my baby is born.
I had my first appointment at my new doctors office, which is conveniently located at the hospital i’ll be having my baby at. Most everything went as expected, although they’ve given me another ultrasound appointment because my baby is a little smaller than average. I’ve had an ultrasound before for the same reason, and they explained everything is normal, and i’m just having a smaller baby (which is expected since I only have so much room). The reason I was given another ultrasound is beyond me, but i’m looking forward to seeing my baby again just weeks before she’s due.
I’ve never been so exhausted before. It’s as if my brain’s checked out and my body’s on autopilot. I’ve been given advice such as, “Sleep while you still can,” but i’m already passed that point! As terrified as I am of having a baby, a part of me just wants her to be here already! Not only so that I can finally meet my baby girl, but so I don’t get out of breath just by getting off the couch.
I’ll post updates more frequently now, and thank you to those who have been so supportive of me in the past few months of my life. You mean a lot more to me than you might think!