So I’ve decided I need to skip a class to have time to write, because if I don’t, I won’t get a second of free time. I keep telling myself that it won’t get harder than this, and I just need to get through it. After all, my sanity’s pretty important. I just have to keep a positive image in my head to avoid losing motivation. It’s definitely not easy to self-motivate yourself, but I’m managing. I feel like I’m missing out on so much in life, since I’m mainly tied down to my house with school work.
Audrey’s currently chewing on my finger, and I really think she’s teething. It’s kind of hard to tell, but it will all work out as long as I always keep a teether close by. She’s getting more of a personality every day! She loves to laugh, and it’s the sweetest thing I have ever heard. I never thought it was possible, but you don’t know what love is until you have a child. It’s crazy how fast time flies by. I’m trying my hardest to live in the moment and not take a second of my time for granted, because I’ll never get it back. It’ll be gone in the blink of an eye, and all I will have left are memories of these precious moments. This is why I feel a sense of guilt when I’m not with her, and when I have to focus on other things such as school. I feel as if I need to dedicate all of my time and energy to Audrey as I once did, rather than school work. I just need to remember that I need to budget my time and do school work as much as I have to in order to be successful. The harder I work now, the better our life will be later. And I’m going to do everything in my power to make that the best life I possibly can.
Audrey had her 4 month check-up last Thursday! I was trying to mentally prepare myself the week prior to the appointment, because she was due for her immunizations. It honestly went so much smoother than I expected! She only cried for about 30 seconds, and didn’t even start until after the band-aid’s were on. She weighs 14 pounds and 10 ounces! I’m so grateful for such a healthy, happy baby. I’m going to wait a few more months to give her food, but plan on giving her rice cereal at about 6 months.
Thanks for reading & I’ll update again SOON! 🙂